No Longer Posting

As you may have noticed, I have neglected this blog for some time now. The reasons behind it are mostly the fact that so many things have changed that I just don’t have the energy to bother keeping up with it all. I mostly login to Second Life just to check messages and that’s about it. I have come to no longer enjoy Second Life and most of my friends have moved on to other things and so shall I.

My time spent in SL (Second Life) was wonderful, exciting and very interesting to say the least. But it is finally time to move on and pursue things I had put off for so long in my RL (Real Life). I will miss, an do miss, all my friends that I have met over the past few years in SL. I miss the long nights of talking and hanging out, the dancing and parties, and you guys know what else ^.~

So to all of you, thank you for making SL, and some of you my RL, so much better. I really appreciate everything and I will always be a friend. Contact me anytime if you have my contact details ^.^

2 Years In SL

On January 26, Asaria has been in Second Life for exactly two years. I see others have big rez day parties and do lot’s of things on their rez day, but mine was just another day. I realize this is a small detail but it is something that meant something to me. I spent my rez day in a sandbox just working on scripts by myself. I knew nothing was planned because here recently, my friends seem to have drifted away. Yes, this bothers me some but I kinda knew it would happen.

Most times when I login now, I am just checking my group notices and then logging off again. Why is it that this is all I do now? Because I really  don’t see much reason to be in Second Life now. Everyone is off doing their stuff and being with others, which is fine. I know that they have other friends and other people to do things with. It’s just the fact that they don’t even say hello or hey to me anymore when I login.

But anyway, I am not going to ramble about this anymore. My time in Second Life is coming to a close soon due to the fact that I really have no reason to be there anymore. I have scripts and things that I have made that I could sell, but I am never sure they are good enough to be sold. I have had a lot of ideas for things to do or things to make, but I just don’t have the drive to do it anymore. I miss having people to talk to when i login, even if it’s only 15 minutes. I login now and end up spending the whole time alone in a sandbox just standing/sitting there. I search events to find something interesting, but I show up and it’s nothing… a simple hello and then that’s it.

I am anti-social and yes I know that Second Life is a social thing. I try to have a conversation or start one, but most times it goes ignored. So I just give up after 30-45 minutes and return to the sandbox. So yea, I am tired of how things are going and I just want to quit and move on to something else. Yet, something keeps nagging me in the back of my mind and telling me “You need to be here for a reason.” I wish I knew what that was… cause I have no clue.

Will update more soon, I hope.

How Much Am I Worth?

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And all this time I thought I wasn’t worth anything.

On My Mind

We all dream of our own paradise
Yet we can never achieve it
We long to find a place we belong
Somewhere to call home
A place to be free
But we really don’t know what freedom is
We fight many battles
We cause so much pain
All in the struggle of life
Paradise is a dream
A dream we will never see
A place that doesn’t exist
We are jealous of others
For many reasons
But the main reason is
We are not happy with ourselves
No one in this world is truly happy with themselves
No matter how much they think they are
Cause it’s not possible
That is how it is
We live our lives dreaming of a perfect world
But it only exists within
If it only exists within
Then I wish to dream forever
To dream forever
And be happy forever
The ultimate dream
A sad end but a happy beginning
That is the cycle of life

Sigh, Missing Snapshots

I attended a live music event yesterday where Cylindrian/Grace was performing for Elf Circle charity week. I managed to snap about eight snapshots of her performance, which was stunning. But now that I get ready to upload them to flickr to do my post, they are gone. I have no clue where they went to either, because I save my snapshots to one directory on my computer. No matter what operating system I am currently booted into, I always have a special “Snapshots from SL” folder. Yet nothing is there now, did gremlins eat my snapshots? I would love to know.

But anyway, the performance was wonderful and I will try to catch more of her performances in the future.